of course i still do.. but do you?

Yarmin E. ♥

currently easy to satisfy

all i'm asking for is a massage and a banana two bananas.
lets leave the corrupt thoughts out of this please LOL.

Yarmin E. ♥

let loose, who the fuck cares?

make space, i'm coming through! i'm part of this F'n world too.

i'm holding my fucking Heart in my hands. got my sleeves all wet, stained and shit cuz he didn't want it.. Fuck it, i'm snatching it back. this shit is making me sour.... wtf?? how did i manage to make the one person i truely opened myself up to, and cared for, so unhappy? i know shit wasn't great, you should've seen the way he was acting. my godd, you should've seen the way he was acting. i wasn't supposed to be his enemy. i've thrown fists for him. i traded sunlight, and beaches for his dark room. i forgave. and swallowed jealousy... i've been ashamed of these feelings, had me hanging my head low. my life's been on pause cuz these pains just been too profound, pathetically mourning something he clearly didn't want to let give life to. he never shed a tear for the blood we've spilled. so my face reflected his, never spoke about it. and now i'm chasing Five years of my life, trying to make sense of them, give them some type of meaning. tell me they mean something to You at least. maybe You could share some of it's Worth with me. but please don't tell me all You got is a Lesson Learned. i refuse to be the Mistake. i know i meant more to You than this.
so why?

Yarmin E. ♥

did you see the Sky after tonight's storm?? the sky was so red that

red light was reflecting on my window sill. Beautiful.
i took a pic from my sala window. Look..

8:43 PM
image by Yarmin E. ♥

the storm's near

the storm's near
now hurry, pass me your Heart babe!
it'll be pouring soon. the Lighting's silent
but the Thunder's screaming.
give me Pa! you're hands are already full
you can't hold on to both our hearts
you're gonna drop mine in a puddle

Yarmin E. ♥

they say you're hanging out with the wrong crowd, but where's the right crowd?

talking with Betsy ♥.

call me dead

i don't spill these emotions every where i go. i don't say much.
so what? call me dead.

Yarmin E. ♥

...

he didn't care.. he didn't worry.. he didn't wonder.

i miss him...

but he'll never know.

Yarmin E. ♥

Mmmmm

omg. i am dying for some Werther's butter candy.

i put a black piece of tape over my laptop's built- in camera cuz i felt like someone might be watching me. it felt like an eye just staring at me.

seemed logical when i did it. now i'm looking at it and laughing.. so paranoid.... but i'm still not taking it off LOL.

no, no, no

i am not giving up. i need to feel that sweet feeling of accomplishment. it's been a while. so i'm sticking through it. don't you let me down.
*inhale.... exhale*

"tomorrow, if a golden train came to take you away, would you go? or would you stay?"

golden train- justin nozuka

without rain there's no rainbow

i love the rain, i don't mind it. but where's the Summer weather? we're in June, right?
i want to go to the beach a whole lot this summer. and the pool. also need to re-learn how to ride a bike. roller-blading would be cool too. and i'm def getting behind a motor-cycle this yr, it's time.
let's go on a road trip. to nowhere, and camp out. and if the clouds won't give way to the sun this Summer then so be it. lets dance in the rain.
can you promise me a good Summer?



image by Sehrish M.

Yarmin E. ♥

fucking deadlines. i hate them!

as much as i missed school i can't stand writing papers. i'm just not good at BSing. got this paper due on British colonization.. ugh. the hardest part is starting. how would we have survived without our friend Mr. Last Minute.
i came across this cool vid during my procrastination. coincidence.

OH EM GEE Yarmin! pls!!

just do it! for me?

♫ ♪ ♪

"smile. happiness, you can model it.
and when you feel opposite
i just want you to know
your whole being is beautiful
i'ma do the best i can do
cuz i'm my best when i'm with you"

come close - common ♥
thank u

i'm so undefined

you know?

Yarmin E. ♥

if i can't skip life, may i skip today?

ugh................. goodnight. closing my blinds.

yarmin e.

and he ages without me too

happy birthday ♥

Yarmin E.

i haven't changed. at all. have i? the way i feel about me, and the world around me hasn't changed. those insecurities are these same ones right here, they still hold me back. and the pain i been feeling, for way too long now, i don't know what to make of it. when does it become a lesson learned? how is it that as unchanged as i continue to be my life feels so unstable? like at any minute things are finally going to come crashing down completely and i'm going to loose it.


Yarmin E.

Laugh with Me, Not at Me LOL

this was a while ago. yea, i do this sometimes. so?
don't leotards just make you want to dance to Single Ladies? lol :-}

the thing about it

the thing about is that it feels like it could kill you.
feels like it should..
it should. but it doesn't.
you'll be OK. you'll always be OK.


Yarmin E. ♥

this makes me love the song even more

these are fifth graders. i wonder if they understand the meanings to the lyrics. either way they look like they're feelin' it ♥. i wish i had a teacher like this when i was in elementary school.. we should give this to all our kids. we need something like this.

always give up

i'll always give up at the end of the day. i'll come home. close my blinds. drown the noise with my fan. lay. i've been defeated, again. i'm so tired. sleep at last. wait for the nightmares. and pray tomorrow won't wake me. pray tomorrow won't wake me.
pray tomorrow won't wake me. pray tomorrow won't....


yarmin e.